July 26, 2018
Before I say anything, I’d like to say a big thank you. You have been there for me, followed me everywhere. We’ve had a deep connection. I always shared my “me” time with you. I remember when my sister first introduced us and how nervous I was, but then suddenly we became inseparable. I can’t believe I am writing this to you. I never thought this would happen to us. We’ve been together since my first smartphone.
I find it interesting that previous generations never had you and never thought they would. You are so old yet so young. Since I met you, you have grown so much. I barely recognize you now. Are you outgrowing me? I think it is exhausting to keep up with you and how constant you change.
I’m afraid that someday you’ll try to change me into someone my friends and family don’t know. Truth is if you loved me you wouldn’t want to change me.
It’s been seven years since I met you and I am aware that you’ve been with other people longer but I think we need a break. I am grateful for the opportunity to get to know you. I want more. I want to explore the wonderful world I live in, make long-lasting memories, make mistakes and learn from them, hang out with my friends without you interrupting. I want to take photos and learn to appreciate them without caring what people think. I want to cross the street without using you as a distraction. I don’t want to be with someone who makes me compare myself with the Kylie Jenners of the world. You have made me create jealousy over illusions. I now envy relationships and lifestyles that don’t even exist. The other day, you compared North West to Blue Ivy, like they were adults. And honestly, I hate you for that.
I’m not saying that I don’t love you anymore because I do. Honestly, you’ve been my best friend. I love how I can always access you from multiple devices. I love being able to see what my friends and family are doing from miles away. I love finding inspiration from you every day. I love how you always gave me something to do during those nights we stayed up until 5 in the morning. But I hate that as soon as I wake up, I run to you, without even being sure if I can walk or not. I am sorry but I don’t want to do that anymore.
I want you to know that just because I am no longer with you does not mean I no longer care. I need a break for a little while. Trust me, everyone around me is going to keep me updated on how things are for you. I’ll try not to interfere.